i'm in! thank you for your support!
yea!!! i'm in!!! now i'm officially a tjc 29th student council elect!!! thank you so much for all your support!!! domo arigato minna-san!! i don't think i'll be running for delta house cap because it's confirmed to be raimi liao la. no competition. i aso dun think i want exco aso because i still want my co. hahaz. see i'm so loyal even though i haven't even practiced with them yet la. i think i want to be welfare ic. i like to care for others. LOLz. oh ya, sorry for all 13 nominees who didn't get in. i personally felt that some of you deserved more to be in rather than some people who got in just because there were favourable conditions for them. ooh...all 6 deltans got in. 6 alpha warriors, 9 betanites and 12 gammanians. wah, we are now under public eye. stress ar.hmm...i think scg 18/05 might still have some hope la. yesterday we finally decided to have a scg outing to pulau ubin. and after the mock chem SPA yesterday, everyone helped the slower ones to keep their apparatus. but, today, some people say that they rather watch a movie la...but watch movie how to interact? still need more evidence to prove to me that scg is not that hopeless la.oh shit. my PI got rejected la. miss ho say don't do topics related to emotions, because no solid product can be produced. must find another topic asap.wow! i didn't know so many people read my blog la! like yesterday i told cui ying "hey! i confirm plus gurantee plus chop not joining band liao leh." then she replied "ya, i know, i read your blog." then today ed told me the girls in his class know that i'm ostracized in tj. then i asked him what made them thought so, then he said that they read my blog. i'm like so touched la. thanks for your support. but i want to clarify 1 thing. even though i may sound despo for friends ar, i'm not ostracized la. i've got friends but just don't have that kind of close friends yet. ya, i think i'm becoming closer with certain people and if the progress continues, they may be the one(s). thank you so much for your concern! perhaps you might want to show yourselves at the kbox thing next monday. hahaz.oh ya, i've got council camp from friday to sunday. i've to rush back to tj after the prize-giving ceremony. that reminds me. i think the seniors in our group, group 4, are really fun and friendly la. i also like the fellow elects in group 4 la. don't have any irritating people. i'm quite sure that it will be lots of fun! but can it beat the slc? stay tuned to find out. well, it's only tuesday night. so, until next time, cya~ oyasumi~
sunday discussion: my WONDERFUL scg 18/05
current ringtone: jolin tsai - ye man you xiwell, today i woke up at around 10, had breakfast and went to church. after that i came back and started doing tutorials. okok, i was using the com and doing tutorials at the same time. after that, i showered, went out for dinner, came back, did my reflections for this period being a sc nominee and taa-daa!! here i am.i finally got to have a good chat with cray when he came online. yes! now i've got a website that i find out more about dizi!!!! (that yan deng always busy one. and tjco ppl dun seem to visit the tjc forums often.) apparently his broadband would only be up next week. when i asked why he looked troubled he said he's born with that kind of face which i think is quite a funny answer lah. then i pointed out that he looked happier during the slc, he said that he didn't have to worry about tutorials or anything during the camp, which is quite true. through more talking i realized that we have some similar points la, like normally only sticking to a small group of friends which he described as "autism". but also got differences, like his scg being very fun and maybe a little too crazy at times and that now i'm forced to widen my social circle which makes me uncomfortable. well, we'll see each other in school and co, which is kewl.now, let's get to the main part of today's post:-----------------------------------------------------------------SUNDAY DISCUSSION:yupz. my scg totally rocks. as in it's rock bottom on a scale of 1 to 10. why? let me elaborate.my scg has been dubbed "the scholar class" because like half of the people are foreign scholars. there are also non-scholar foreigners. and amongst the singaporeans, there is quite a few non-chinese. i'm not being racist or anything but it's inevitable that there will be some segregation.worse still, there are so many cliques in the class and being a 2nd-intake doesn't help either. and there are only 7 guys. 3 of whom are 1st-intakers, 3 other 2nd-intakers who are all in soccer and me left to be in my clique consisting of 3 other members who are all girls. then there is the "YSS" clique and all the scholars can be catagorized as one clique(this one coincides with the 3 1st0-intake guys clique) and the "non-chinese singaporeans" clique and of course the infamous "bimbotic anti-social duo" or BASD for short(who are the only non-chinese singaporeans to be excluded from that clique).i mean, we still get along la, except maybe for BASD, but we just don't glue well and you can't feel any bond at all lah. i mean, even my pw group also lah. even though we are cool with everything, we don't really feel bonded yet lah. at least we plan to have pw group outings to bond. any attempts to organise scg outings (including one to pulau ubin which surprisingly was suggested by ryanti) has been turned down by BASD. they say things like "for what? what are you going to do at pulau ubin?" i guess they are just too busy with their own lives.BASD also like to ask many stupid questions during tutorials la. reminds me of someone...hmm....anyway there's also our chinese banding. since we have very few people taking chinese, we are grouped with another scg. they are mostly quite ok la but equally not bonding well la, except BASDver.CL"AO". they are 2 girls from the other scg la. but instead of asking many stupid questions, they heck care the teacher la and they r so dao and think that they are very chio or something. which they are not. trust me. could someone pass them a mirror? oh wait, it's just a waste of glass once they try to look at their reflection.so, seriously, i've given up like almost all my hope on finding close friends in my scg liao. maybe can still try to make the majority of us feel something la, but that's e best i can do. now i'm pinning all my hopes on sc (if i get in) and CO, which i had already mentioned before.well, that's it for this week's sunday discussion. until next time, cya~ oyasumi~
Gift Of Hope
i know it's wierd but i really have to blog now. i juz talked to ed and we made each other realized many things. even though things don't seem smooth-sailing now, we can always hope for a better tomorrow. i decided not to sit back and try to do anything about my hopeless scg anymore. i'm going out to find friends outside my scg much more seriously. i'm sure there are others like me in desperate need of a close friend. it is now my task to bestow upon them this wonderful gift of hope that i now have. ed says that i gave him hope last time but i don't know what i did. anyway, i'm going to do my best and everything would be fine. yea. :)
ooh...haircut...
current music: jungiery stars - ai de qi ji (jungiery OST best collection)i woke up at around 10.30am today and managed to watch pokémon!!! well, i had apple juice and a piece of some chocolate snack for breakfast. then i watched gransazers. i want the opening theme!!! where can i get huh? and after that i watched sonicx. ok la, i've seen the 1st few eps before liao, so no kick.after that i turned on my com and started downloading tsubasa chronicles and played mp3 while i started with my tutorials. yea i think i'm on the right track just need a bit more umph. well, i had some fusili for lunch and it was meagre on the whole. after that i went back to my music and tutorials. until around 5pm i decided to get a haircut.so i went to the usual place at toa payoh and they gave me a similar haircut. i think i'm going to try somewhere else next time to get something different.then i went to tenchi and bought my bleach 26. then i went over to cd hut and bought ai de qi ji. yay! den my way to the bus stop i bought a fried squid thingy from old chang kee. nice!so i came home, showered, had dinner and went back to doing tutorials until i got kinda tired and here i am, blogging!!anyway...i'm still kinda depressed la, despite the things i did to cheer myself up. council elections still going on...when can i start learning my dizi...when can i find my close friend in tj...still feeling so empty....well...at least did some tutorials....less guilt...how?until next time, cya~ oyasumi~
doushite....
current music: 5566 - yong bu fang qi (won't give up)nyaa~ we are almost reaching the end of the race for "miss council". haha...still remember the skit...things will never be the same after tuesday...mrs kitty tan told me that a councillor should set a good example. it's not that i didn't want to do my tutorial lah. i seriously didn't have the time...anyway, my weekend will be dedicated to "pia"-ing all my tutorials. it's the only time when i actually can sit down properly and do my work lah. then still must get my haircut...if not, sekali that mr tong catch me den die liao.yay...can join CO for practice soon...1 more week...oh ya, the new t-shirt still has a dragon but the tee is white this time...hmm...bai long pai? doesn't sound as cool. lolz.i still haven found a super close friend in tj yet...i'm feeling kinda hollow....when will the person appear? i know usually takes a few months for such a thing to happen but i really can't wait anymore...oh ya, sin yee also feels very sad about this....she agrees that our class is very disunited and it's because like half of the people are scholars. then there are foreigners and even amongst the locals there are only a few chinese. then there are all the cliques. it's really bothering me...tt's why i really need a close friend...even if the person is not in my class....we did our first and last and only nominee duty at the meet-the-parents for the year 2's. quite sad la....so, until next time, cya~ oyasumi~
voting begins! vote for me!...please?
my code is Delta F!!!!Yes! voting starts today!!! vote now before the voting closes on sunday 6pm! your every vote matters!!! since this is my blog, i can promote myself. vote for me!!!! i'm a 2nd-intaker leh....i will do my best. i don't usually speak much in front of the crowd but i simply cannot stand injustice and will take a strong stand when that happens. anyway, today was the mass dance test!! it was ok la. and the SPP interview!!! they were looking for confidence and i don't think i stood out (they interviewed 4 at a time). all that raimi's fault la. so intimidating. oh ya, raimi is like confirm our future delta house cap liao la. he's damn pro lor. smart and athletic and charismatic. geez.we also took down our posters today. i really hope i've done enough for campaigning. oh ya, some of the nominees ar, so lazy leh, know how to put up, don't know how to take down. then those of us taking down posters just helped them to avoid being scolded by the councillors lah. !!!!i joined chinese orchestra on tuesday!!! they've got syf practice now so i'll join in the practices the beginning of next month when it's over. yay!!! dizi!!!! i'm not going to be persuaded to play the suo na lah. oh ya, i saw rui long at the canteen during lunch today and asked her wether she knew the other new dizi player (she knows how to play the western flute so she still has some advantage) and just so happens that she was right next to her!! her name is ichun and seems pretty enthusiastic about practicing together since we are like the only 2 players who are n00bs amongst the 6 year 1 dizi players. she also knows cray so we decided to ask cray for help. so, i caught up with cray after physics lecture and asked for his number and told him the "good news" and he said he wun be free till syf. hmm...dunno y he seems quite sad most of the time...must ask him next time...oh, so i asked shiok and wendy (shi han) for help because shiok was in CO in her secondary school and wendy knows a bit about playing the dizi. some people think that i've made a wrong move since i won't be joining competitions and may not get a chance to play for concerts but my motive is just to learn dizi because it was always my dream to play a woodwind instrument....ahh....reminds me of my sec1 days when i was forced to play the trombone....for 4 yrs...and i got b4 for cca....sad...but i really appreciate the support shown by some about me joining CO. thanks!! ooh...now i can get e cool collar pin and t-shirt!oh ya, reasons why i'm not joining band is because of the horrible people, or rather, person. tt stupid year 2 who thinks he's very good, or shuai or tall or something. he's sooooooooooooooo sarcastic. he's like, "i don't think the problem is with the instrument..." uhh...just say what you have in mind lah. don't be so niang and beat around the bush! and i really don't have the passion for band anymore la. strangely, i've learned to appreciate and love CO!!! hahahahahahaha. too bad, your loss. :Pi still don't have the oisters contact list...i want...help...oh shit, it's only thursday. time to slp. until next time, cya~ oyasumi~
mass dance prac...
current music: F.I.R. - Wu Xian (album)yeap, we practiced our mass dance today. i went down all the way to opposite tjc and we practiced. like only 17 of us turned up lor. and i couldn't do my tutorials and my PI 1st draft (due on tuesday!). no choice la, must pia tomorrow lor. should be able to make it ba. maths, bio, chem, phy, gp and pw....haha. zhi yong wore super short shorts today and some of the girls said his legs looked sexy because they were hairless. then some of them argued that wether being hairless or not looked good depended on what kind of shorts the guy is wearing. must take note. lolz.i asked around today about the wushu/co thing and most of the feedback pointed towards wushu. yea i think it's good lah. it's more 'man' in some sense. and since there are fewer members, we would probably become very close which is what i would want. i also want to build up physically in order to fufill one of my resolutions of being able to do my pull-ups. anyway, i'll finalize my decision after consulting all my friends in co now and i should probably talk to some people in wushu too.i finished with the scg 18/05 contact list. i want the contact list of oisters leh...i miss them so much...i wonder if they feel the same....or izzit i too despo for close frenz and zhi zuo duo qing? ooh...ai de li liang by FIR is quite nice!i think i've done what i can for campaigning liao lor. if i do anything more, i'll just become irritating. just hope everything goes well. hustings this wednesday. voting on thurday or friday i think. i'm afraid that if i don't get into sc, i'll let my supporters (regardless of number) down. well, until next time, cya~ oyasumi~
wow...it has already been a week?!
omg!!!! i haven't been online in a whole week?! wow...i didn't realize i was so busy. now i really appreciate my weekends more. let me give a summary of what has happened.-------------------------------------------------------------STUDENT LEADERSHIP CAMP (SLC): yea, it lasted from last friday to sunday and it was way too short! i totally enjoyed myself!!! it's the best camp ever!!! it's like the moment our group met, we all knew there was chemistry between all of us and we were going to have a whole lot of fun together! okok, i have to admit i was pretty glad that i already knew some of the people in the group like clarice, sean& char! our group, group 2, is named O.I. (original idiots)!! and we are oisters (4eva)!!!we did all kinds of things together like our neverending rounds of icebreakers like terrorist and the "!slap!, *silence*, ouch, sorry, number" game. our forfeits are so outrageous and daring! and the thing is, no one chickened out! we also had an amazing race and station games and rafting and trust fall and our skit during the campfire night!campfire night was great. OI did a sports thingy and we had soccer, cricket, chess, wushu, black sheep white sheep, football and cheerleading. it was truly spectacular. i was in the wushu thing with becky. i'm suppossed to be a wushu champ so i did some really lame moves and becky just literally bursts out of the box and attacked me. other groups' skits included "ah beng and ah lian", "cgay" (yes, catholic jc), "meow +moooink" amongst others. rafting was damn fun! i was in the 1st team and after travelling a few metres, the raft came apart. no worries, we got back ashore and fixed it. in the end it didn't really matter who won and everyone cheered for trigo who was last. yea, the great thing about the camp is that we (at least OI) didn't care about winning and that having fun was more important.kudos to sean for the great job being our sports commentator for the skit and being the backbone of the team. clarice thanks for coming to camp with me. char, watch out for your back, hope u'll recover asap! thanks yan deng for being ever so lame. cray you're a true gentleman, respect *thump* *thump*. sunita thanks for finally realizing i'm in your scg. preeya, keep doing the bimbo cheeer! becks, u very pro leh, ballet, wushu, cheerleading everything aso can. nick, dun attract the attention of all girls around leh, i aso need some leh. di hui, dun worry, u r still part of us. ain, thanks for keeping sean in check. grace, make sure u dun lose ur great and warm personality! carolyn, yea, you did good! ai jia, cheer up la, i know u wanted a tougher camp. chongyi, thanks for being so compliant. ziyu, dun steal my place in council!!!!! LOLz. anu, just shut up. yea, after camp i really missed everyone. we have to go on with our lives. we'll still greet each other very passionately when we meet but of course it wasn't like during the camp. i hope that the oister spirit will live on...*sob*----------------------------------------------------------------CAMPAIGNING: yup, campaigning started this week. i did the posters only on monday night. i upgraded and printed out on tues. i zapped on wed and handed in for vetting. the posters were finally up on friday. they're everywhere, including above the tapz point. hahaha.there's mass dance practice everyday. so i have to go home late everyday, giving me minimal time to do tutorials so i just did as much as i could and i'm determined to finish up properly during the weekends.we had introduction on wednesday. i wore a cardboard signboard that said "vote for me! please?" in front and "deltaF" behind. the response i got wasn't too good but i guess it was partly attributed to raimi, who was right before me, who did too well by rapping. my interview was on thurday and i totally screwed up by not knocking on the door, saying that i was lame and accidently said "join council" instead of "running for council".anyways, thanks for everyone who has helped me so far! i really appreciate that!-----------------------------------------------------------------PDP DILLEMMA: yup, i haven't signed up for any pdp and i know i have to asap. taekwondo is full (damn that stupig guy with a faulty pencil the other day...). i just tried going back to band today and remembered how much i hated it. i guess CO would be rather similar. so i've decided i want to join a sports cca. wushu? squash? hockey? sailing? climbing? still getting a headache. help!------------------------------------------------------------------DEPRESSED: yea...i'm pretty depressed because i don't think i have any super close friends in tj...i feel so lonely...and most, if not all, my closer friends in tj are girls...i need guy friends...i thought i could bank on my oisters but they are already comfortable with their own lives....i'm so sad...even the endorphins in chocolate aren't working on me....why....------------------------------------------------------------------well, that's the summarized version of the past week. until when i have time, cya.... oyasumi~
and off to camp i go!!
ooh...i'm going for the student leadership camp tomorrow!! won't be back till sunday. i haven't packed yet so maybe i should go pack soon. they say "small backpack" is compulsory but i seriously don't have space for another backpack. school ends at 12pm but we have to turn up in school by 1.15pm which means i would mean that i have to bring all my school stuff to camp?! crap. i hope can tumpang someone who's not going.yea! i'm running for sc!! woo hoo~ my code is deltaF. i'm a 2nd-intaker so please vote for me. argh. campaigning starts next week and my weekend is eaten up by the camp. must think of strategies during the camp. hmm...i'm still wondering if the TASC is related to the sc at all...well, until sunday, cya~ oyasumi~
sunday....i'm back!!
yay! my com is fixed. ok i just recovered the hard disk. i think it was some error in the registry. i'm going to busy busy busy so i think you should only expect posts during the weekends. i've signed up for sc but the briefing is the wednesday i think. signed up for psychology elective but there will be screening. there's also screening for the scholarship prepretory program. clarice and i managed to get into the leadership training camp at sentosa next week!! woohoo!! i think i'm joining taekwondo but the year 2 black belts look so pro... i've bought a new bag for school. yay! hmm...wierd people in tj are still manifesting themselves...more self-proclaimed gays....and guys like that karate blue belt guy who went to try out tkd and when i said "wow...you look so-(i was about to say pro)" he cut me off with a "-good, right?". i tell you i was about to vomit my guts out. so shameless...campaigning will start soon...hmm...wonder if my strategies will work...i'm open to any suggestions.i'm a bit deprived of new gba roms and chinese music...can anyone tell me if they know any good sites? i want to hear twins...fir..jj (even if his new songs sucks)...oh yea, i also want the gransazers opening theme [life goes on]! kinda nice. i aso want simple plan! i don't know why but i suddenly feel like listening to them. hahatime to go! until next time, cya~
